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#WakingUpWhite, history, justice

#Waking Up White Chapter 21: Straddling Two Worlds

This chapter is unbelievably relevant, especially in light of the post I put up not six hours ago about my past (“News and Updates”) as well as my essay on…

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April 13, 2019
musings

Do I Have Privilege?

The short answer is “Yes.” The longer answer is more nuanced, because of course I don’t see or experience my privilege. It just is, because I live in a society…

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November 3, 2015
musings

A Setback and a Resurrection

I am celebrating Easter today, which is a reminder to Christians that death is not the final answer. We celebrate Easter because Jesus, having died, was resurrected and will die…

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March 27, 2016
kreyòl ayisyen, language

M kontinye aprann kreyòl ayisyen

It’s just weird how the cycle works. I reach a point where I just cannot absorb another thing in kreyòl. I am tired. My head is full of mush. It…

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October 14, 2022
American Exceptionalism, Black Lives Matter, faith, history, justice, Life Recovery Skills, racism, violence

When They See Us—Buffalo Edition

Perhaps white people's thoughts and prayers and good intentions aren't enough when their Black friends are asking for love and dignity.

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May 16, 2022
  • A man at a protest holds a sign reading "No Justice, No Peace."
    Black Lives Matter,  history,  justice,  racism

    Non-Violent Protests Are American

    September 29, 2025 /

    We have the Constitutional right to peacefully assemble, to petition the Government to listen to and respond to our grievances, and the right to say what we will without prohibition. (James Madison, primary author of the First Amendment

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    When it is too much to bear but must be borne

    April 18, 2023
    AI generated image of a black tea kettle and several black pots

    When the Pot Gets It Wrong About the Kettle

    September 23, 2023
    A blue police light shining in a dark background.

    Safety monitors

    January 28, 2023
  • musings

    It’s Finally Here: Fieldnotes on Fortitude

    August 29, 2025 /

    It’s finally done and published. Whew! This summer, along with my other activities, I helped edit a book of essays about staying resilient in times of great chaos and galloping fascism. Truly a labor of love from the writers, editors, and publisher, Fieldnotes on Fortitude: Resilience in Resistance contains sixteen essays by a wide variety of authors with their unique insights into understanding of our current condition. It will eventually be available in both online and retail stores, but for now, it’s available on Amazon. Fieldnotes on Fortitude: Resilience in Resistance Enjoy!

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    My Dear White People

    November 10, 2019

    Update on the Language Journey

    July 15, 2023
    Leaf floating on water

    When You Fall

    September 21, 2019
  • A Black man speaks in front of an orchestra.
    American Exceptionalism,  Black Lives Matter,  history,  justice,  racism

    On the Existence of Black Folk

    July 26, 2025 /

    We just do not allow Black people in America to just exist. To be. To be learning and growing. To make mistakes and then figure out the way forward. To be children who are innocent and who love fun, who are mischievous and scared and reluctant to admit they’re scared. To boast and exaggerate, to hide and crawl away. To try new things and even reject them. Or to discover their talents and pursue their interests to become fulfilled in life.

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    It Doesn’t Have to Be This Way

    February 6, 2019

    What Would You Do If You Could Bring Conciliation?

    January 17, 2019

    My Dear White People

    November 10, 2019
  • Street view of the F. W. Woolworth building in Greensboro, North Carolina. There are a dozen people standing on the sidewalk in front of the building.
    American Civil War,  Black Lives Matter,  history,  justice,  racism

    When We Hide the Past in Plain Sight

    July 14, 2025 /

    Jim Crow is an evil, yes, and many of us have a social response of “that’s so terrible.” But we do not want to admit how terrible it was and is again. We are a country of people proud to be Americans but so ashamed of our actual history that we erase it and suppress it from being taught and learned and seen.

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    Juneteenth, Reparations, and What Do I Do About It?

    June 19, 2019

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 6: From Confusion to Shock

    February 8, 2019
  • a blurred city neighborhood behind a black chain link fence.
    American Exceptionalism,  Black Lives Matter,  justice,  racism

    Black and White; Truth and Lies

    June 13, 2025 /

    Some seventeen years ago now a man I didn’t much know but with whom I sparred asked a question of me that changed the course of my life: “You do know that I’m Black?”

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    When We Don’t Want to Know

    September 28, 2019

    Sliding Away from Relevancy

    September 24, 2019
    A white man in a hat smiles at a white woman who smiles back.

    REVIEW: Good White Racist?2

    May 24, 2021
  • Mixed Scrabble tiles
    Black Lives Matter,  education,  faith,  Haiti,  history,  justice,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language,  racism

    Language and Memory

    February 10, 2025 /

    Yesterday I was talking with my Haitian friends in Haitian Creole for about an hour as we were planning how to set up our class to teach Haitians how to speak American English. Per my request, they talked a little more slowly and with fewer idioms than usual (although they did throw in an idiom that I got right away with my brain rapidly connecting the imagery with cultural aspects of Haiti, and man did that feel good that I did that!).

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    REVIEW: Punch Me Up to the Gods

    September 15, 2021

    Not Your Place, Not Your Time

    April 15, 2022
    A footbridge in the fog. The bridge is held up by a concrete hand.

    Be Like Betty White

    January 2, 2022
  • education,  Haiti,  kreyòl ayisyen

    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025 /

    One day I’ll be good enough to interact with native speakers who don’t know me and who don’t give me grace for my mistakes.

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    Eighteen Months In

    September 19, 2023
    A book cover for "Chita Pa Bay". An outline of a man With one hand he is holding a conch shell to his lips to sound an alarm, and with his other he holds a machete.

    I begin “Chita Pa Bay”

    December 31, 2022

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 20: My Robin Hood Syndrome

    April 9, 2019
  • Seven hot air balloon in various colors float in the light blue sky.
    history,  Seattle,  writing

    Thoughts on My Last Day at Work

    January 10, 2025 /

    I had my retirement lunch today with my team, along with a few people who showed up unexpectedly from past, and it was really wonderful. I am just myself at work the same as I am in life. I put people first, mentor people and coach them, treat them as unique and wonderful and worth loving. I’ve done my job as a technical editor as a job that I loved, but still, it was a job. It used my passions and skills and talents. But the more important part was helping other people improve their skills, find their passions, and be released into what made them who they were. Not…

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    When it is too much to bear but must be borne

    April 18, 2023
    A stramd of barbed wire running horizontally

    When Our Bibles Get It Wrong

    February 27, 2022
    Four sheep facing the viewer. They are standing in a field.

    To My Evangelical Faith Family

    August 29, 2020
  • A Black woman looks at the camera. We see her brown eyes and brown skin.
    Black Lives Matter,  faith,  Haiti,  history,  racism

    When We See Them

    October 24, 2024 /

    I’ve come to know many Haitians who are delightfully unique in their outlook on life as they are in their accents and vocabulary, which gives me no end of headaches as I try to figure out yet another idiom or unique word play I need to understand so that I can grasp their meaning.

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    Jesus as Emperor

    March 22, 2022

    When it is too much to bear but must be borne

    April 18, 2023
    A man works to repair a church window.

    On Deconstruction

    March 17, 2022
  • Man wearing hard hat and orange safety vest is tying iron construction rods together.
    Black Lives Matter,  Haiti

    Chèmèt chèmètrès

    August 11, 2024 /

    Adventures in translation This was my “wrapped the chain around the axle” moment today. My assignment this month is to read a long-form essay, understand it, and then read it out loud & record it for my professor. It’s not a terribly difficult essay, but it taxes my brain because it’s a lot of content to read with comprehension well enough to explain it. Then I came across this word: “chèmètchè-mètrès”. Having no clue what this might be, I looked it up in my dictionaries (plural). No entry. I used Google to search the web. In all the world, this essay is the only place where it occurs. I have…

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    A Black man speaks in front of an orchestra.

    On the Existence of Black Folk

    July 26, 2025

    When it is too much to bear but must be borne

    April 18, 2023

    When They See Us—Buffalo Edition

    May 16, 2022
  • White cat stretching on a brown wooden plank
    kreyòl ayisyen,  language,  musings

    Two Things

    June 29, 2024 /

    Back in July or August of 2023 my left thigh started bothering me. Certain kinds of clothing irritated the heck out of it, but even without anything touching it, I’d have this numb-prickliness

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    Liv kreyòl ayisyen fini!

    December 8, 2022

    Duolingo fini!

    November 27, 2022
    A spider web, close up, illuminated by the morning sun. Behind it is a forest.

    The Subtle Traps for the Unwary Learner

    February 8, 2023
  • avocado, split in half. The bottom half is the entire avocado, and the top half shows the top part of the seed.
    challenges,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    My Year So Far

    June 1, 2024 /

    My previous post was in January of this year. It's just turned June. Where did the time go?

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    Ki kote m ye?

    July 23, 2023

    News and Updates

    April 13, 2019

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 22: Why Do I Always End Up with White People?

    April 29, 2019
  • Two Haitian children carrying yellow plastic water buckets on their heads. Behind them is a small water supply building with its door open. In the background are more people carrying yellow plastic water buckets on their heads.
    Black Lives Matter,  faith,  history,  justice,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language,  racism,  work

    Great Unexpectations

    January 28, 2024 /

    Why does the world exist the way it does that a people confined to a third of an island in the Caribbean are seen as less-thans? How do they grapple with the faith that comes from white people to their land, given to them to give them hope, and yet used as a tool by those same white people to call them despicable names and degrade them?

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    When They See Us—Buffalo Edition

    May 16, 2022
    A white man in a hat smiles at a white woman who smiles back.

    REVIEW: Good White Racist?

    May 24, 2021
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    Jesus as Emperor

    March 22, 2022
  • Man sitting on a park bench reading a newspaper
    essays,  faith,  justice,  musings

    What I’ve Learned in 2023

    December 31, 2023 /

    I wanted to reflect upon what I learned this year, and also think of how my knowledge will affect my choices and behaviors in the new year…

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    Of Course I’m Racist

    September 16, 2019
    white man with gray hair faces away from camera, sitting in empty stone church.

    Making the Past the Past

    August 1, 2020

    The Quarantine of Emotions

    December 8, 2019
  • Black Lives Matter,  Food,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    My First Foray into the Field

    November 16, 2023 /

    I had already decided to make my order entirely in Haitian Creole. Which was a good choice, because the staff at the restaurant were not speaking English.

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    A Black man speaks in front of an orchestra.

    On the Existence of Black Folk

    July 26, 2025

    When They See Us—Buffalo Edition

    May 16, 2022

    REVIEW: Subversive Witness: Scripture’s Call to Leverage Privilege

    December 12, 2021
  • AI generated image of a black tea kettle and several black pots
    Black Lives Matter,  history,  justice,  racism

    When the Pot Gets It Wrong About the Kettle

    September 23, 2023 /

    The oppressing side in its acts of oppression is doing wrong by nature. There is no “just” oppression. Whether it is cruel or superficially “kind,” oppression is wrong and cannot be redeemed either by language or a reduction in cruelty.

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    On Deconstruction

    March 17, 2022
    A Black man, centered, is being pushed by the hands of an off-screen person

    The White Voice in Black Conversations

    September 19, 2021
    bronze bust of Julius Caesar seen from the side

    Jesus as Emperor

    March 22, 2022
  • education,  history,  justice,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Eighteen Months In

    September 19, 2023 /

    Well, I will continue my journey. It’s been a wonderful adventure that not only has helped open up a language and a culture and a people I never knew before, but also has changed me in how I see the world and understand those who live in.

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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 24: Everyone Is Different; Everyone Belongs

    May 6, 2019
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    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023
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    Fieldnotes on Allyship is Launched!

    October 2, 2020
  • faith,  Food,  history,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Seeing with a New Tongue

    August 27, 2023 /

    in those decades of following Jesus, I’ve listened to uncountable sermons and Bible studies, often led by people with great earnestness, who have said “oh, if you only knew the Greek/Hebrew/Aramaic you’d see stuff in the scriptures that are hidden to you because you only know English.”

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    Beyond the Sight Lines of Racism

    January 1, 2021

    Enough

    March 15, 2019

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 15: The Whole Story

    March 14, 2019
  • challenges,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Ki kote m ye?

    July 23, 2023 /

    It is weird to me that I can read these materials and kinda get the gist of them, but golly they are way more complex (to me) as an English-speaking student who has so little comprehension of Haitian culture and idioms.

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    News and Updates

    April 13, 2019
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    My Year So Far

    June 1, 2024

    If I love you, I have to make you conscious of the things you don’t see

    January 26, 2019
  • musings

    Update on the Language Journey

    July 15, 2023 /

    It’s been a while since I last updated what I’m doing as I’ve been on the journey to learn Haitian Creole. I started in March of 2022, just after Duolingo released its course in Haitian Creole, and after a month of daily practice I realized that I was just learning some words and some very simple grammar, but beyond that, the course was not as fully developed as Duolingo’s other, more mature courses. There were no stories, for example, and various other features were just missing. Plus, it didn’t go very far beyond some vocabulary building and some simple grammar. It’s good stuff, believe me, but it’s not going to…

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    When You Fall

    September 21, 2019
    graffito silhouette of girl reaching for red heart on a string

    Words of Apology

    May 9, 2020

    The Voices Are Coming from Inside the House

    July 12, 2019
  • Food,  kreyòl ayisyen

    Food Is Family

    May 7, 2023 /

    You just can’t get into Haitian culture if you don’t try pikliz. It’s colorful, flavorful, with a kick of spice, & epitomizes Haitian cuisine and culture.

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    My First Foray into the Field

    November 16, 2023

    Seeing with a New Tongue

    August 27, 2023
  • Several Haitian schoolchildren line up for a picture.
    American Exceptionalism,  challenges,  education,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023 /

    I felt so slow and ignorant. I’m not that advanced, not at all, and I am a slow learner who is just not going to get much further along than I am. I’m feeling so discouraged.

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    The Charlottesville Declaration

    April 27, 2019

    The Fear of Transparency

    June 5, 2021

    The Purpose-Driven Lie

    October 23, 2019
  • An ocean shore in the tropics. A line of palms stretches from the lower left to the middle right.
    American Exceptionalism,  history,  justice

    When you think you want to help

    April 28, 2023 /

    If you see Haiti and you have the urge to “help,” I would suggest that Haitians don’t really need you to come help them. Haitians, like all humans, have great intelligence, drive, creativity, and their own sense of self-worth. If you want to help, find and support Haitians who are doing that work. It doesn’t give you a place to be centered and it won’t provide photo opportunities of you “helping” Haitians. But it will help Haitians by letting them do for themselves.

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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 25: Belonging

    May 14, 2019

    The Voices Are Coming from Inside the House

    July 12, 2019

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 11: Headwinds and Tailwinds

    February 26, 2019
  • American Exceptionalism,  Black Lives Matter,  faith,  history,  justice,  racism,  violence

    When it is too much to bear but must be borne

    April 18, 2023 /

    How do I make my faith work anymore (and maybe it never did) when such a very Christian nation seems incapable of seeing the violence we are initiating, celebrating, and dismissing, often while claiming the name of Jesus?

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    Not Your Place, Not Your Time

    April 15, 2022
    Several Haitian schoolchildren line up for a picture.

    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023
    Red pipe going up and over an obstacle

    When We Don’t Want to Know

    September 28, 2019
  • protest march with a sign that says "No Justice No Peace."
    American Exceptionalism,  Black Lives Matter,  faith,  history,  justice,  racism,  violence

    When we resist, we resist completely

    April 8, 2023 /

    You want to terrify politicians? Take away their signs of power which are "respect" and obedience and decorum and complacency. Trip them up, make a point to oppose them at every turn, continuously point out their failures, and continuously refuse to accord them the power to silence you.

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    A child stands at the bottom of stone steps, considering how to overcome a seemingly impossible challenge.

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 41: From Bystander to Ally

    February 21, 2020

    To Study Portuguese

    February 20, 2019

    My Dear White People

    November 10, 2019
  • A street scene in Jakmèl, Ayiti. (also known as Jacmel, Haiti) A colonnade with several open bays.
    education,  humor,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Maurice Sixto and His Stories

    March 27, 2023 /

    There is a lot to unpack here, and while the story is interesting, it’s difficult for me because I don’t understand some of the references to the local customs.

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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 10: The Melting Pot

    February 22, 2019

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 20: My Robin Hood Syndrome

    April 9, 2019

    The Purpose-Driven Lie

    October 23, 2019
  • A book cover. A young boy holding his bicycle is kissed by a young girl.
    Books,  education,  humor,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language,  reviews

    Mwen damou pou Vava – a story

    March 17, 2023 /

    I could hear this young kid narrating this story. “My friends, you know me, and you know I wouldn’t tell you stories. But one day I met a girl—or maybe I just saw a girl—and I’ve not been able to remember what life was like before she existed.”

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    Review: When They Call You a Terrorist

    February 9, 2019

    REVIEW: Subversive Witness: Scripture’s Call to Leverage Privilege

    December 12, 2021

    REVIEW: Anxious to Talk About It

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