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faith, history, justice, Life Recovery Skills, racism

Walking in and out of Justice

Sometimes we can choose our inconveniences. I was watching a video late last night, far past midnight, and stopped about half-way through because it was one o’clock or so in…

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October 20, 2019
Celebrate Recovery, Life Recovery Skills, writing

God and Newtown

To my fellow Christians who are posting that “Newtown is God’s judgment on America for taking prayer out of schools”— I’m not speaking for God here, for my church, my…

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December 18, 2012
musings

Is Truth Nihilism? A Response to Some Charges about “Between the World and Me”

First off–I’m not a trained philosopher. I don’t have special insight. I just have my opinions. And I haven’t finished reading the book in question, “Between the World and Me,”…

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August 22, 2015
essays, faith, justice, Life Recovery Skills, racism, writing

Of Course I’m Racist

I don’t think I’ve ever been called a racist—not because I’m not, but because the people in my life are simply too kind and too gentle, and treat me as…

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September 16, 2019
Christmas, writing

About the About of Christmas

We watched “A Heavenly Christmas” this evening as we relaxed by the fire. It’s a Hallmark Christmas movie, so there is no bad language, no mocking or satire, and no…

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November 30, 2017
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    Black Lives Matter,  education,  faith,  Haiti,  history,  justice,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language,  racism

    Language and Memory

    February 10, 2025 /

    Yesterday I was talking with my Haitian friends in Haitian Creole for about an hour as we were planning how to set up our class to teach Haitians how to speak American English. Per my request, they talked a little more slowly and with fewer idioms than usual (although they did throw in an idiom that I got right away with my brain rapidly connecting the imagery with cultural aspects of Haiti, and man did that feel good that I did that!).

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    When the Pot Gets It Wrong About the Kettle

    September 23, 2023

    When They See Us—Buffalo Edition

    May 16, 2022
    A white man in a hat smiles at a white woman who smiles back.

    REVIEW: Good White Racist?

    May 24, 2021
  • education,  Haiti,  kreyòl ayisyen

    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025 /

    One day I’ll be good enough to interact with native speakers who don’t know me and who don’t give me grace for my mistakes.

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    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023

    Do This in Remembrance of Me

    August 25, 2022

    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023
  • Seven hot air balloon in various colors float in the light blue sky.
    history,  Seattle,  writing

    Thoughts on My Last Day at Work

    January 10, 2025 /

    I had my retirement lunch today with my team, along with a few people who showed up unexpectedly from past, and it was really wonderful. I am just myself at work the same as I am in life. I put people first, mentor people and coach them, treat them as unique and wonderful and worth loving. I’ve done my job as a technical editor as a job that I loved, but still, it was a job. It used my passions and skills and talents. But the more important part was helping other people improve their skills, find their passions, and be released into what made them who they were. Not…

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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 28: I Am the Elephant

    June 24, 2019

    On the Public Death of a Suspect

    March 30, 2021
    People standing and walking down the corridor of a brightly lighted shiny conference hallway

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 36: The Dominant White Culture

    November 21, 2019
  • A Black woman looks at the camera. We see her brown eyes and brown skin.
    Black Lives Matter,  faith,  Haiti,  history,  racism

    When We See Them

    October 24, 2024 /

    I’ve come to know many Haitians who are delightfully unique in their outlook on life as they are in their accents and vocabulary, which gives me no end of headaches as I try to figure out yet another idiom or unique word play I need to understand so that I can grasp their meaning.

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    When we resist, we resist completely

    April 8, 2023
    book cover. Brian Broome as a child, overlaid with the title of the book PUNCH ME UP TO THE GODS

    REVIEW: Punch Me Up to the Gods

    September 15, 2021

    Not Your Place, Not Your Time

    April 15, 2022
  • Man wearing hard hat and orange safety vest is tying iron construction rods together.
    Black Lives Matter,  Haiti

    Chèmèt chèmètrès

    August 11, 2024 /

    Adventures in translation This was my “wrapped the chain around the axle” moment today. My assignment this month is to read a long-form essay, understand it, and then read it out loud & record it for my professor. It’s not a terribly difficult essay, but it taxes my brain because it’s a lot of content to read with comprehension well enough to explain it. Then I came across this word: “chèmètchè-mètrès”. Having no clue what this might be, I looked it up in my dictionaries (plural). No entry. I used Google to search the web. In all the world, this essay is the only place where it occurs. I have…

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    REVIEW: Good White Racist?

    May 24, 2021

    REVIEW: Subversive Witness: Scripture’s Call to Leverage Privilege

    December 12, 2021
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    On Deconstruction

    March 17, 2022
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    kreyòl ayisyen,  language,  musings

    Two Things

    June 29, 2024 /

    Back in July or August of 2023 my left thigh started bothering me. Certain kinds of clothing irritated the heck out of it, but even without anything touching it, I’d have this numb-prickliness

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    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022

    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023

    Seeing with a New Tongue

    August 27, 2023
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    challenges,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    My Year So Far

    June 1, 2024 /

    My previous post was in January of this year. It's just turned June. Where did the time go?

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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 22: Why Do I Always End Up with White People?

    April 29, 2019
    Six people participate in a close group hug.

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 25: Belonging

    May 14, 2019

    If I love you, I have to make you conscious of the things you don’t see

    January 26, 2019
  • Two Haitian children carrying yellow plastic water buckets on their heads. Behind them is a small water supply building with its door open. In the background are more people carrying yellow plastic water buckets on their heads.
    Black Lives Matter,  faith,  history,  justice,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language,  racism,  work

    Great Unexpectations

    January 28, 2024 /

    Why does the world exist the way it does that a people confined to a third of an island in the Caribbean are seen as less-thans? How do they grapple with the faith that comes from white people to their land, given to them to give them hope, and yet used as a tool by those same white people to call them despicable names and degrade them?

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    Jesus as Emperor

    March 22, 2022
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    Shadows on the Wall

    July 15, 2021
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    When the Pot Gets It Wrong About the Kettle

    September 23, 2023
  • Man sitting on a park bench reading a newspaper
    essays,  faith,  justice,  musings

    What I’ve Learned in 2023

    December 31, 2023 /

    I wanted to reflect upon what I learned this year, and also think of how my knowledge will affect my choices and behaviors in the new year…

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    Feats of Clay

    December 31, 2018

    The Quarantine of Emotions

    December 8, 2019
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    A Place We Cannot Enter

    October 14, 2019
  • Black Lives Matter,  Food,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    My First Foray into the Field

    November 16, 2023 /

    I had already decided to make my order entirely in Haitian Creole. Which was a good choice, because the staff at the restaurant were not speaking English.

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    Language and Memory

    February 10, 2025

    Not Your Place, Not Your Time

    April 15, 2022
    AI generated image of a black tea kettle and several black pots

    When the Pot Gets It Wrong About the Kettle

    September 23, 2023
  • AI generated image of a black tea kettle and several black pots
    Black Lives Matter,  history,  justice,  racism

    When the Pot Gets It Wrong About the Kettle

    September 23, 2023 /

    The oppressing side in its acts of oppression is doing wrong by nature. There is no “just” oppression. Whether it is cruel or superficially “kind,” oppression is wrong and cannot be redeemed either by language or a reduction in cruelty.

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    REVIEW: Subversive Witness: Scripture’s Call to Leverage Privilege

    December 12, 2021
    Man wearing hard hat and orange safety vest is tying iron construction rods together.

    Chèmèt chèmètrès

    August 11, 2024

    REVIEW: Shoutin’ in the Fire

    November 10, 2021
  • education,  history,  justice,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Eighteen Months In

    September 19, 2023 /

    Well, I will continue my journey. It’s been a wonderful adventure that not only has helped open up a language and a culture and a people I never knew before, but also has changed me in how I see the world and understand those who live in.

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    Do This in Remembrance of Me

    August 25, 2022

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 20: My Robin Hood Syndrome

    April 9, 2019

    The Purpose-Driven Lie

    October 23, 2019
  • faith,  Food,  history,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Seeing with a New Tongue

    August 27, 2023 /

    in those decades of following Jesus, I’ve listened to uncountable sermons and Bible studies, often led by people with great earnestness, who have said “oh, if you only knew the Greek/Hebrew/Aramaic you’d see stuff in the scriptures that are hidden to you because you only know English.”

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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 38: The Rugged Individual

    December 20, 2019

    Fieldnotes on Allyship: Now in Print

    October 10, 2020
    Man sitting on bench by church

    A Place We Cannot Enter

    October 14, 2019
  • challenges,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Ki kote m ye?

    July 23, 2023 /

    It is weird to me that I can read these materials and kinda get the gist of them, but golly they are way more complex (to me) as an English-speaking student who has so little comprehension of Haitian culture and idioms.

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    When the Past Tries to Reclaim the Present

    March 13, 2019
    Six people participate in a close group hug.

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 25: Belonging

    May 14, 2019

    News and Updates

    April 13, 2019
  • musings

    Update on the Language Journey

    July 15, 2023 /

    It’s been a while since I last updated what I’m doing as I’ve been on the journey to learn Haitian Creole. I started in March of 2022, just after Duolingo released its course in Haitian Creole, and after a month of daily practice I realized that I was just learning some words and some very simple grammar, but beyond that, the course was not as fully developed as Duolingo’s other, more mature courses. There were no stories, for example, and various other features were just missing. Plus, it didn’t go very far beyond some vocabulary building and some simple grammar. It’s good stuff, believe me, but it’s not going to…

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    Hope

    March 6, 2019

    This Do

    April 1, 2021
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    Pride and Prejudice, Staged

    October 26, 2019
  • Food,  kreyòl ayisyen

    Food Is Family

    May 7, 2023 /

    You just can’t get into Haitian culture if you don’t try pikliz. It’s colorful, flavorful, with a kick of spice, & epitomizes Haitian cuisine and culture.

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    My First Foray into the Field

    November 16, 2023

    Seeing with a New Tongue

    August 27, 2023
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    American Exceptionalism,  challenges,  education,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023 /

    I felt so slow and ignorant. I’m not that advanced, not at all, and I am a slow learner who is just not going to get much further along than I am. I’m feeling so discouraged.

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    Carefully Taught, Thoroughly Educated

    October 21, 2019

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 8: Racial Categories

    February 14, 2019

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 42: Solidarity and Accountability

    March 16, 2020
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    American Exceptionalism,  history,  justice

    When you think you want to help

    April 28, 2023 /

    If you see Haiti and you have the urge to “help,” I would suggest that Haitians don’t really need you to come help them. Haitians, like all humans, have great intelligence, drive, creativity, and their own sense of self-worth. If you want to help, find and support Haitians who are doing that work. It doesn’t give you a place to be centered and it won’t provide photo opportunities of you “helping” Haitians. But it will help Haitians by letting them do for themselves.

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    When We Don’t Want to Know

    September 28, 2019
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    With Malice Aforethought

    May 9, 2020

    Green Books, Black Lives, and White History

    February 28, 2019
  • American Exceptionalism,  Black Lives Matter,  faith,  history,  justice,  racism,  violence

    When it is too much to bear but must be borne

    April 18, 2023 /

    How do I make my faith work anymore (and maybe it never did) when such a very Christian nation seems incapable of seeing the violence we are initiating, celebrating, and dismissing, often while claiming the name of Jesus?

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    Sliding Away from Relevancy

    September 24, 2019

    Carefully Taught, Thoroughly Educated

    October 21, 2019
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    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023
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    American Exceptionalism,  Black Lives Matter,  faith,  history,  justice,  racism,  violence

    When we resist, we resist completely

    April 8, 2023 /

    You want to terrify politicians? Take away their signs of power which are "respect" and obedience and decorum and complacency. Trip them up, make a point to oppose them at every turn, continuously point out their failures, and continuously refuse to accord them the power to silence you.

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    Sliding Away from Relevancy

    September 24, 2019
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    Safety monitors

    January 28, 2023

    When They See Us—Buffalo Edition

    May 16, 2022
  • A street scene in Jakmèl, Ayiti. (also known as Jacmel, Haiti) A colonnade with several open bays.
    education,  humor,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Maurice Sixto and His Stories

    March 27, 2023 /

    There is a lot to unpack here, and while the story is interesting, it’s difficult for me because I don’t understand some of the references to the local customs.

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    To Study Portuguese

    February 20, 2019

    Do This in Remembrance of Me

    August 25, 2022

    The Purpose-Driven Lie

    October 23, 2019
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    Books,  education,  humor,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language,  reviews

    Mwen damou pou Vava – a story

    March 17, 2023 /

    I could hear this young kid narrating this story. “My friends, you know me, and you know I wouldn’t tell you stories. But one day I met a girl—or maybe I just saw a girl—and I’ve not been able to remember what life was like before she existed.”

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    Review: When They Call You a Terrorist

    February 9, 2019

    REVIEW: Urban Apologetics

    April 6, 2021

    REVIEW: Anxious to Talk About It

    January 17, 2022
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    American Exceptionalism,  faith,  family,  history,  justice,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023 /

    Rather than seek to deny the humanity of gay people and trans people, what about using your religion to help you decide to know more about them so that you can love them better?

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    Wherefore art thou, Evangelicals?

    May 11, 2022

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 28: I Am the Elephant

    June 24, 2019

    Green Books, Black Lives, and White History

    February 28, 2019
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    history,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    It’s Been a Minute…

    February 23, 2023 /

    It was 365 days ago I first started using #Duolingo to begin my journey learning Haitian Creole (#kreyol #ayisyen). Why?

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    The Fear of Transparency

    June 5, 2021

    Walking in and out of Justice

    October 20, 2019
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    We Must See People in Color

    January 22, 2021
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    kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Day 360 : Se Papa Li, Se Pa Pa Li

    February 18, 2023 /

    There are times when I feel pretty good about my abilities, and then there are other times when I think I am the most ignorant and ill-taught student ever.

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    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023

    My First Foray into the Field

    November 16, 2023
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    Great Unexpectations

    January 28, 2024
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    kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    The Subtle Traps for the Unwary Learner

    February 8, 2023 /

    But then you start constructing your more complicated sentences and paragraphs, and it seems that every phrase has another chance to pick the not-quite-right grammatical construction or phrase or word

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    Mwen damou pou Vava – a story

    March 17, 2023
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    It’s Been a Minute…

    February 23, 2023

    Ki kote m ye?

    July 23, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Bogs and marshes and slogs oh my!

    January 31, 2023 /

    Yesterday in class I read two pages of text, out loud, and then translated them on the fly, to the point where I was laughing out loud at some of the more ridiculous events in the story.

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    My Year So Far

    June 1, 2024

    Duolingo fini!

    November 27, 2022

    In which I learn more words

    July 5, 2022
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