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American Exceptionalism, faith, family, history, humor, Life Recovery Skills, movies

Entertainment Matters

We usher at the local theatre about once a month for live productions. It’s our “date night,” and we generally make a half-day of it. We have to prepare for…

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February 23, 2019
Celebrate Recovery, essays, faith, history, justice, Life Recovery Skills, racism

Why It Matters: For you I was born, for you I live, and for you I give my last breath

I am involved in two streams right now that are greatly affecting me on how I see myself and what I consider my values. And in one of those streams…

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December 2, 2018
musings

We Americans and Our Violence

Someone posted recently that “we Americans” demanded that Muslims in America speak out against violence because “we Americans” were terrified of them here in America. My response: Speaking as a…

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December 5, 2015
musings

Sermon Podcast: “A Legend in Our Own Mind”

A good word about the guts of the faith. We who believe in Jesus must be more than mental followers. Else why believe at all? via Sermon Podcast: “A Legend…

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July 30, 2019
essays, musings, writing

Just Words / Just Words

Much of what is happening now in the world of the Internet and the media focuses on several issues: The deaths of nine saints in Charleston, South Carolina The demands…

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June 22, 2015
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    An hour of conversation

    June 11, 2022 /

    So this last week (Tuesday) I had my first full hour of tutoring in kreyòl, and zanmi m, it was glorious! We spoke almost entirely in kreyòl, with just a few lapses, mostly by me when I was trying to ask a question (and I can and should ask them in kreyòl!) or when I was fumbling for the right word or reacting to my mistakes. (I mumble to myself that I should know the word!) My tutor a few times jumped in to explain a new word or word usage on some tricky parts, but really, as horrible as my accent is, and as hacky as my grammar is,…

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    Looking back 300 days

    December 16, 2022

    Food Is Family

    May 7, 2023

    Ki kote m ye?

    July 23, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Practice makes for better practice

    June 6, 2022 /

    I’m kinda excited for what’s about to happen. I started this journey back in February/March 2022. (The first week was really the setting into the process and it was a blur.) Duolingo was a great help to me to get me used to the sounds and grammar and words, but it is not really a useful tool for conversations for this language. Unlike other, more broadly used languages, Haitian Creole (kreyòl ayisyen) doesn’t have the bells and whistles such as conversations and stories and the like. So I’m paying full price and not getting all that other languages get. (But given that it’s in Beta and I am willing to…

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    I begin “Chita Pa Bay”

    December 31, 2022
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    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023

    Day 270 of the Infinite Journey

    November 19, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022 /

    91 days from now you could be exactly where you are, or you could be deep into the study of a new language, ready to connect with people!

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    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025
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    Two Things

    June 29, 2024

    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    At long last language?

    May 31, 2022 /

    WE DID IT! Today was the first time that my tutor and I had an actual conversation in kreyòl! Now, to be fair, after ten or so weeks it wasn’t beautiful and it wasn’t entirely correct. But we did talk about “stuff” and I was able to form sentences and respond to questions with almost no help on a missing word. I’m still terribly wrong on word order, and sometimes I just don’t “get” it. But we are doing well! And today we hammered out the meaning of sentences such as “Wi, se dòktè mwen ye,” which if you know the individual words can be confusing. But it’s one form…

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    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023
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    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023

    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Lordy, there are TAPES

    May 20, 2022 /

    Okay man, it’s getting serious now. In the previous weeks of lessons with my tutor, we did a lot of work on elementary parts of kreyòl—nouns, articles, verbs, connections, sounds, spelling, the alphabet, the numbers 1-100, then how to count higher, and some work on simple tenses (participle, past). A few of the lessons felt a little much, in that they were using some alternate ways of saying things, and that’s fine! That’s how it should be—show me some ways to say something. But then . . . we turn to the narratives of four people living in four towns in Haiti, talking about their families, their birthplaces, their jobs…

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    One thing more

    November 20, 2022

    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022

    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025
  • American Exceptionalism,  Black Lives Matter,  faith,  history,  justice,  Life Recovery Skills,  racism,  violence

    When They See Us—Buffalo Edition

    May 16, 2022 /

    Perhaps white people's thoughts and prayers and good intentions aren't enough when their Black friends are asking for love and dignity.

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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 14: ZAP!

    March 10, 2019
    Boxes and cups and bottles all stacked on shelves

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 37: Boxes and Labels

    November 29, 2019

    I Am MLK Jr

    October 21, 2019
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Countdown to learning Kreyòl

    May 15, 2022 /

    Okay, it’s been, what, ten weeks? I’ve found better and better resources to learn kreyòl ayisyen, and while I am in no way fluent, I was able to have a conversation with my tutor last week. Now, I did write out the narrative in English so I had a good idea of what I’d be talking about, but I translated on the fly from my English text to kreyòl, sometimes stumbling, sometimes mixing up sounds. (I don’t know what the confusion is called, but I would try to say something like “etidye” and it would come out “editye,” which are two different words and meanings.) I’m having trouble with size-comparisons…

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    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023
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    Looking back 300 days

    December 16, 2022
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    Great Unexpectations

    January 28, 2024
  • American Exceptionalism,  faith,  history,  racism

    Wherefore art thou, Evangelicals?

    May 11, 2022 /

    As America evolved as an independent nation freeing itself from certain connections with Britain such as political and economic control, so did the church, centering itself in the power and people of America who ran the nation, and inescapably represented their cultural values through religious language and theology.

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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 44: Listening

    March 28, 2020
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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 38: The Rugged Individual

    December 20, 2019

    What Would You Do If You Could Bring Conciliation?

    January 17, 2019
  • musings

    SPEAKASY: An interview with Elyse Douglas

    May 4, 2022 /

    I had the opportunity to interview Elyse Douglas about her latest book, SPEAKEASY, published by Broadback. I appreciate that she gave so generously of her time when she could be working on the sequel!

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    Pride and Prejudice, Staged

    October 26, 2019

    The Purpose-Driven Lie

    October 23, 2019
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    When You Fall

    September 21, 2019
  • reviews

    SPEAKEASY, by Elyse Douglass

    May 4, 2022 /

    Roxie Raines is a girl out of time in 1925s New York City. So how did someone from 2019 end up in a speakeasy, anyway?

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    A Review of BRIGHT STAR the Musical

    August 11, 2019

    REVIEW: Subversive Witness: Scripture’s Call to Leverage Privilege

    December 12, 2021

    REVIEW: Anxious to Talk About It

    January 17, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Maybe a corner is turned

    April 20, 2022 /

    I’ve been hard at work with my lessons in kreyòl on Duolingo, and on paper it looks good—Level 21 / 25! Super, right? Only I’m frustrated because it still seems so atomized. I’m learning words and some phrases, but Duolingo has limited flexibility to say things in other ways. For example, “Sa k pase?” which means “How’s it going?” (“What’s passing/happening?”). But the more common phrase in Haiti is “Sa k ap fèt?” which means “What’s up?” (“What’s the festival?”). Or even the short “Anfòm?” with the response “Anfòm” (“Fit” / “Okay?” “Fit” / “Yes”). It’s not wrong to say “Sa k ap pase?” It’s fine! But it’s more common…

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    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023

    Ki kote m ye?

    July 23, 2023
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    It’s Been a Minute…

    February 23, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    The case of the missing person

    April 17, 2022 /

    Today’s lesson brought up what I’d seen in the past in a few lessons here and there. Let me show you this sentence in kreyòl: L ap akompli li. Based on what I’ve learned, the word for “he,” “she,” and “it” is “li.” Sometimes (well, to be honest, probably 98% of the time!) the “li” is shortened to just “l” when followed by a vowel sound, such as the word “ap,” which turns the verb “akompli” (accomplish) into the participle form “accomplishing.”  And it’s not a perfect 1:1 ratio. Sometimes it looks like it can’t be shortened, and I am not certain of the rules. I do know that the…

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    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023

    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023

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    November 20, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Let’s talk about what, exactly

    April 16, 2022 /

    Let’s talk about what, exactly. So kreyòl has a whole interesting way to form words of interrogation/asking in ways that remind me of Esperanto. The key to the base of question-words is “ki” (pronounced “kee” but with a short vowel sound that’s hard to show in English—think of it in the way you’d say in Spanish “aqui”). So “ki” by itself is kinda just “what” or whichki tòti == which turtles? ki + moun == what people == whokilès is also “who” [I think the “lès” is an agglomerative noun of some kind, like “people,” but I make it a rule that I don’t try to go further than where…

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    My Year So Far

    June 1, 2024

    The Enchantment of Creole

    December 12, 2022

    Connections

    June 28, 2022
  • American Exceptionalism,  Black Lives Matter,  Celebrate Recovery,  history,  justice,  Life Recovery Skills,  racism

    Not Your Place, Not Your Time

    April 15, 2022 /

    White people, do not go into Black spaces to help change the conversation or add your very important opinion. It is just not the time and place for that.

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    When you think you want to help

    April 28, 2023
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    Black and White; Truth and Lies

    June 13, 2025

    Entertainment Matters

    February 23, 2019
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    The mystery of the “the”

    April 6, 2022 /

    There has been a couple of things I’ve been keeping notes on as I’m learning, and one of them is the mystery of the final “a/an/nan/lan” in some sentences referring to “my thing.” For example,“Èske ou bezwen pa m nan?” which is to mean “Do you want mine?” It parses out fairly easily as “Do” (Èske) “you” (ou) “want” (bezwen) “my thing” (pa m, short for pa / pou mwen, meaning “for me”), but that final “nan” was just mysterious. In this context “nan” is standing for the idea of “that” or “the.” Example, “dam nan” (or “dam lan”) is “the lady.” You can see the connection with “Dame” and…

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    Ki kote m ye?

    July 23, 2023
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    I begin “Chita Pa Bay”

    December 31, 2022

    2-3-5 are prime days for learning

    October 24, 2022
  • American Exceptionalism,  Celebrate Recovery,  faith,  history,  Life Recovery Skills,  racism

    Making Good in Trouble

    March 29, 2022 /

    “Making good trouble” means stirring things up so that we do not become complacent about our situation and resigned to injustice

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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 9: White Superiority

    February 19, 2019
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    We Must See People in Color

    January 22, 2021
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    REVIEW: Good White Racist?2

    May 24, 2021
  • American Exceptionalism,  Celebrate Recovery,  justice,  Life Recovery Skills,  violence

    Wyte Innocence

    March 28, 2022 /

    Wyte people can’t be accused of bias or wrong unless there is exceedingly overwhelming “proof,” and even then we will go down fighting and insisting that we were not wrong

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    May 16, 2022

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 27: Living into Expectations

    June 18, 2019
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  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    What’s mine is mine, I guess

    March 26, 2022 /

    Week 4 of learning Haitian Creole and things are kicking up a notch. Now it’s getting into “ownership” (how to say that something is mine or yours, such as “my father” or “your cat” or even “mine” or “yours.” It is not what I expected, and previously used words now are used in very new ways. It is at once easier—no new words to learn!—and harder—hey, some words have entirely different meaning now! Which is like English, of course, but I’ve been speaking/writing/hearing English for my whole life, and it just “makes sense” that English can verb nouns with ease & we pick it up. So, onward and upward! Èske…

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    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023
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    Maurice Sixto and His Stories

    March 27, 2023
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    Ayiti se yon lide—Haiti is an idea

    January 3, 2023
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    American Exceptionalism,  Black Lives Matter,  Celebrate Recovery,  faith,  history,  justice,  Life Recovery Skills,  racism

    Jesus as Emperor

    March 22, 2022 /

    The vision of Jesus for empire Christianity in our Sunday Schools and sermons and theologies is really an irrelevant Jesus who does not match the Jesus of the texts.

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    Safety monitors

    January 28, 2023

    Real but Imaginary Threats

    June 19, 2021

    When it is too much to bear but must be borne

    April 18, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Starting point

    March 20, 2022 /

    About three weeks ago I was encouraged by some Haitian friends to start using Duolingo. They knew of my interest in learning their language, and they had talked with me about the differences in the French and Haitian Creole languages, but there really wasn’t a place that would make it easy for me to learn kreyòl ayisyen. Then Duolingo announced they were releasing their course on Haitian Creole! They urged me to sign up, and so I did. I’m now about three weeks in, and it’s been a whirlwind. Here are some observations: Learning a language isn’t just about learning words. It’s about learning rhythms and logic and meanings of…

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    November 16, 2023

    2-3-5 are prime days for learning

    October 24, 2022

    Liv kreyòl ayisyen fini!

    December 8, 2022
  • A man works to repair a church window.
    American Exceptionalism,  Black Lives Matter,  Celebrate Recovery,  faith,  family,  history,  justice,  Life Recovery Skills,  racism,  remodeling

    On Deconstruction

    March 17, 2022 /

    For the vast, vast majority of people, “deconstruction” is a good thing. Deconstruction can result in something far different and, in my opinion, far better than, white Evangelical Christianity.

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    Shadows on the Wall

    July 15, 2021
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    June 13, 2025

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    March 29, 2022
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    American Exceptionalism,  Celebrate Recovery,  history,  justice,  Life Recovery Skills

    When Our Bibles Get It Wrong

    February 27, 2022 /

    The history of the church is our confidence in rightly understanding until we realize how terribly wrong we’ve misunderstood everything.

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    May 23, 2021
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    January 1, 2021

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  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    The journey begins . . .

    February 21, 2022 /

    Today I started my first lessons in Haitian Creole (“kreyòl ayisyen”) using Duolingo. Wish me luck!

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    July 23, 2023

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    May 7, 2023

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    November 27, 2022
  • Black Lives Matter,  Fifth Avenue Theatre,  musicals,  racism,  reviews,  reviews,  Village Theatre

    To Be Human Again

    January 25, 2022 /

    Sometimes the arts can entertain us. Disney has surely figured out that formula. But sometimes . . . the arts can open something up to us that we didn’t ever think we needed to see and learn.

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    The White Voice in Black Conversations

    September 19, 2021

    REVIEW: The Secret Lives of Church Ladies

    October 12, 2021
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  • Books,  faith,  justice,  racism,  reviews

    REVIEW: Anxious to Talk About It

    January 17, 2022 /

    You will not find this to be the “answer book.” It’s not designed for that. This is a book that invites us to join in the community, in the discussion, in the journey.

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    REVIEW: How to Fight Racism

    December 28, 2020
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    May 24, 2021
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    Mwen damou pou Vava – a story

    March 17, 2023
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    American Exceptionalism,  Black Lives Matter,  history,  justice,  racism

    Be Like Betty White

    January 2, 2022 /

    Betty White, a white woman in an industry that empowered only white men, stood up for what's right. It cost her the job that she loved. But she did it, not “anyway,” but “because.” She did it because of her own moral integrity.

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    February 11, 2019
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    May 24, 2021
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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 36: The Dominant White Culture

    November 21, 2019
  • Black Lives Matter,  Books,  history,  justice,  racism,  reviews

    REVIEW: Subversive Witness: Scripture’s Call to Leverage Privilege

    December 12, 2021 /

    The book’s subtitle hints at what’s to come: we are all granted some level of privilege in life that others do have; those who have the most privilege are called to use that privilege

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