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essays, faith, justice

When Words Fail

I was in a conversation recently where this question came up: “How do we influence people to change their minds and do things differently?” This question is dear to me…

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December 12, 2019
kreyòl ayisyen, language

How on earth did I get here?

Kreyòl ayisyen has five ways to say the singular "the." And now I know them!

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July 20, 2022
musings, writing

Can We Listen to Imperfect People?

I wish there were a perfect victim of violence done by the hand of the state, one who did not have a checkered past. I wish there was a perfect…

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December 23, 2014
American Exceptionalism, education, history, kreyòl ayisyen, language

One thing more

There is a glass bubble around white people in America and elsewhere, a bubble that lets us see through to the lives of others, but that protects us from questioning…

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November 20, 2022
faith, justice

A Non-Traditional Blessing

Text composed by Sister Ruth Fox, OSB, from the Sacred Heart Monastery in Richardton, North Dakota, in 1985.

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August 20, 2019
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    American Exceptionalism,  faith,  family,  history,  justice,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023 /

    Rather than seek to deny the humanity of gay people and trans people, what about using your religion to help you decide to know more about them so that you can love them better?

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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 28: I Am the Elephant

    June 24, 2019
    Sihouette of man walking toward light

    Shadows on the Wall

    July 15, 2021
    A footbridge in the fog. The bridge is held up by a concrete hand.

    Be Like Betty White

    January 2, 2022
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    history,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    It’s Been a Minute…

    February 23, 2023 /

    It was 365 days ago I first started using #Duolingo to begin my journey learning Haitian Creole (#kreyol #ayisyen). Why?

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    The Devil Is a Christian Nationalist

    May 23, 2021

    #Waking Up White Chapter 21: Straddling Two Worlds

    April 13, 2019
    A child stands at the bottom of stone steps, considering how to overcome a seemingly impossible challenge.

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 41: From Bystander to Ally

    February 21, 2020
  • A person climbs a sheer cliff.
    kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Day 360 : Se Papa Li, Se Pa Pa Li

    February 18, 2023 /

    There are times when I feel pretty good about my abilities, and then there are other times when I think I am the most ignorant and ill-taught student ever.

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    Food Is Family

    May 7, 2023
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    My Year So Far

    June 1, 2024
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    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023
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    kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    The Subtle Traps for the Unwary Learner

    February 8, 2023 /

    But then you start constructing your more complicated sentences and paragraphs, and it seems that every phrase has another chance to pick the not-quite-right grammatical construction or phrase or word

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    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023

    2-3-5 are prime days for learning

    October 24, 2022

    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Bogs and marshes and slogs oh my!

    January 31, 2023 /

    Yesterday in class I read two pages of text, out loud, and then translated them on the fly, to the point where I was laughing out loud at some of the more ridiculous events in the story.

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    Two Things

    June 29, 2024

    Liv kreyòl ayisyen fini!

    December 8, 2022

    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025
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    American Exceptionalism,  Black Lives Matter,  history,  justice,  racism,  violence

    Safety monitors

    January 28, 2023 /

    That Good Samaritan did a good thing to someone in distress, and if the story stops there, then we have learned a good lesson, right? But what the story doesn’t tell us in the background, and doesn’t tell us “the rest of the story.”

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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 20: My Robin Hood Syndrome

    April 9, 2019

    When You See Their Truth

    November 1, 2021
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    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 40: Bull in a China Shop

    January 26, 2020
  • Two matching windows, side by side, with matching shutters. There is a flowerpot in each window.
    faith,  history,  justice,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023 /

    This kreyòl version is blunt: “Lè Josèf leve nan dòmi an, li fè sa anj Senyè a te di l la. Li marye ak Mari. Malgre sa, li te tann jouktan pitit la fèt anvan l te antre nan zafè sèks ak mari. Li rele pitit ki te fèt la Jezi.”—“When Joseph woke up from his sleep, he did what the angel of the Lord told him. He got married to Mary. Despite this, he waited until the child was born before entering into sex with Mary. He called the child that was born Jesus.”

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    Walking in and out of Justice

    October 20, 2019
    Leaf floating on water

    When You Fall

    September 21, 2019

    Of Course I’m Racist

    September 16, 2019
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language,  short story

    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023 /

    This week’s follow-up assignment was to write my own story, in Haitian Creole, using the grammatical constructions, and build out a similar example of dialog, interaction, and choices. Then, after writing it, I had to read the story and record it, and send the recording to my instructor.

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    Great Unexpectations

    January 28, 2024
    A Haitian man wearing a plaid tan shirt stands on a hillside looking over the valleys and hills below him.

    Ayiti se yon lide—Haiti is an idea

    January 3, 2023

    Food Is Family

    May 7, 2023
  • education,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023 /

    I have two states of feeling when it comes to learning a language–I am either exhilarated or I am in the pit of despair. This week my instructor gave me praise on my reading of a short story in kreyòl as well as on my answers in kreyòl, and as this came from an instructor who has very high standards, I was elated. Perhaps I am not as slow as I thought I am! And he gave me some very simple instructions for this week: write a short story that has a similar situation (two people in a discussion trying to make several decisions in order to use some of…

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    Maurice Sixto and His Stories

    March 27, 2023
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    Mwen damou pou Vava – a story

    March 17, 2023

    The Purpose-Driven Lie

    October 23, 2019
  • A Haitian man wearing a plaid tan shirt stands on a hillside looking over the valleys and hills below him.
    education,  history,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Ayiti se yon lide—Haiti is an idea

    January 3, 2023 /

    It’s hard to overestimate the effects of that quake upon Haiti and Haitians. Twelve years later and so much has not yet been repaired. It was an earthquake that traumatized people—some who today cannot even handle being in a parking garage when a large truck drives by because the floors begin to vibrate and shake.

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    I begin “Chita Pa Bay”

    December 31, 2022

    Eighteen Months In

    September 19, 2023

    REVIEW: Urban Apologetics

    April 6, 2021
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    education,  humor,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    I begin “Chita Pa Bay”

    December 31, 2022 /

    So I’m really loving this book because I have to read it and understand it to know what’s going on – but even better than that is that the story is engaging and challenging and funny. I can just see the interactions between the valiant Mannwèl, who’s curious and active in solving problems, Jèvilen, who carries the anger of his family towards Mannwèl and his family, and Anayiz, who’s seen as someone who “belongs” to Jèvilen but who will make her own choices!

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    Day 270 of the Infinite Journey

    November 19, 2022
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    Fieldnotes on Allyship is Launched!

    October 2, 2020

    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    The Real 300

    December 19, 2022 /

    Haiti is called the first Black republic in the New World, and what is unusual about it is that it was not a nation established by colonizers (England, Sweden, France, the Netherlands, Spain, and so on) but a nation established by the kidnapped and stolen population. Those who were treated as cheap and expendable labor found themselves and created their own nation, throwing France—their oppressors and enslavers—out of their own lands, setting up their own nation, a Black republic, differing in origin from all the other nations in the New World at that time.

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    Ki kote m ye?

    July 23, 2023
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    Looking back 300 days

    December 16, 2022
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    Mwen damou pou Vava – a story

    March 17, 2023
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    kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Looking back 300 days

    December 16, 2022 /

    I feel really good that I’ve gotten this far. I’m still quite incompetent, but there are moments when it clicks.

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    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023

    Duolingo fini!

    November 27, 2022
    A person climbs a sheer cliff.

    Day 360 : Se Papa Li, Se Pa Pa Li

    February 18, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    The Enchantment of Creole

    December 12, 2022 /

    I spent two hours transcribing what I heard, trying so very hard to get the meaning. It was good practice, and I think I got about 30% of the meaning. I just had moments when I heard a set of phonemes and syllables and thought “I have no idea what this is—it’s just a jumble of sounds.”

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    Mwen damou pou Vava – a story

    March 17, 2023

    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022

    One thing more

    November 20, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Liv kreyòl ayisyen fini!

    December 8, 2022 /

    So tonight I finished my first-year kreyòl book. I've been in it since April 2022*, and it has been a source of instruction and frustration as every single time in my lessons I discovered yet another perplexing element of Haitian Creole.

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    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023
    Several Haitian schoolchildren line up for a picture.

    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023

    Food Is Family

    May 7, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Duolingo fini!

    November 27, 2022 /

    I thought that perhaps learning Haitian Creole would be interesting. I did not imagine that it would be a transforming experience.

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    My Year So Far

    June 1, 2024

    Bogs and marshes and slogs oh my!

    January 31, 2023
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    Maurice Sixto and His Stories

    March 27, 2023
  • American Exceptionalism,  education,  history,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    One thing more

    November 20, 2022 /

    There is a glass bubble around white people in America and elsewhere, a bubble that lets us see through to the lives of others, but that protects us from questioning the wisdom laid down in our schoolrooms and homes and churches about what events “really mean.”

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    White Jesus, Bible Jesus: Pick One

    November 14, 2019
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    REVIEW: Good White Racist?2

    May 24, 2021

    When They See Us—Buffalo Edition

    May 16, 2022
  • education,  history,  justice,  kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Day 270 of the Infinite Journey

    November 19, 2022 /

    What better way to find connecting with people than to learn their language well enough to listen to them, understand, and reply in their own language with the full context of their culture?

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    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 20: My Robin Hood Syndrome

    April 9, 2019
    A Haitian man wearing a plaid tan shirt stands on a hillside looking over the valleys and hills below him.

    Ayiti se yon lide—Haiti is an idea

    January 3, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    2-3-5 are prime days for learning

    October 24, 2022 /

    So much of what I'm reading now in my materials assumes a deep knowledge of Haitian culture and history, so that a simple phrase like "tèt kale" turns into a discussion about Haitian leaders and how the phrase is used not just to identify them but to make a pèsonifikasyon

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    Seeing with a New Tongue

    August 27, 2023

    Duolingo fini!

    November 27, 2022
    A Haitian man wearing a plaid tan shirt stands on a hillside looking over the valleys and hills below him.

    Ayiti se yon lide—Haiti is an idea

    January 3, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    M kontinye aprann kreyòl ayisyen

    October 14, 2022 /

    It’s just weird how the cycle works. I reach a point where I just cannot absorb another thing in kreyòl. I am tired. My head is full of mush. It is all just sounds, and sounds that all seem the same. Then in a few days—sometimes almost overnight—it just clicks. Again. Last time I posted (a week ago) I was unable to do anything more. I canceled my tutorial lesson, did the minimum each day in Duolingo, did almost nothing the entire week in my homework (the printed book we’re using for my lessons), and in general mostly just checked out. I hadn’t given up. But I was just .…

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    The Real 300

    December 19, 2022

    Food Is Family

    May 7, 2023
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    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    M sispann!

    October 6, 2022 /

    I so much want to be able to speak and understand this language, but if I can't do this outside the classroom, then I just don't know the language.

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    I begin “Chita Pa Bay”

    December 31, 2022
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    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023

    Ki kote m ye?

    July 23, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Pwofesè, tèt mwen chaje

    September 26, 2022 /

    Man, today was rough. My tutor and I talked lasted week about my lessons. (This is my third tutor.) I am okay with reading kreyòl—I can typically read a text and comprehend what I’m reading because I’m translating as I go, and I pick up a lot of context clues. But I’m seeing the words and phrases at a glance, and that helps me translate quickly. So I said to him, we should spend more time with you talking and me listening & then responding. That is, not using a text but instead listening to actual kreyòl being spoken. Now, all three of my tutors are very well educated, all…

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    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023

    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023

    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Nou aprann nan kominote nou an

    September 25, 2022 /

    I think I’ve hit another wall. The first wall was after the first month or so of learning kreyòl ayisyen (Haitian Creole, or HC) when I realized that Duolingo wasn’t doing enough for me. It was helping, sure! I gained the essentials of vocabulary and grammar, and as I continue to use Duolingo (I’m on Day 214) my vocabulary continues to increase to the point where I now “know” about 700-800 words. (To be fair, many of them are reusable words that have many meanings, so “pa” and “konnen” and “fè” and “mache” are doing a lot of work to hide a lot of what I know. And don’t get…

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    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023
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    Language and Memory

    February 10, 2025
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    I begin “Chita Pa Bay”

    December 31, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Nou monte ansanm

    September 23, 2022 /

    Another update on my language journey: Last night I was given a text to read that I’d never seen before. I read it out loud to my instructor, then answered questions about the text in the same language. My instructor said it was a pleasure to hear me read out loud. I got most of the questions right—we’re getting into the territory of idioms and figures of speech, and let me tell you, there is no other way to harvest that field without rigorous plowing and tilling—and we ran out of time not because I got stuck but because we were so deep in the conversation. Totally not saying I’m…

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    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023

    Seeing with a New Tongue

    August 27, 2023

    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    There are so many more mountains

    September 21, 2022 /

    “Dèyè mòn gen mòn.” This is one of the very first phrases I learned in my Haitian Creole book. (In fact, it was on the same page as the other phrase, “Pale kreyòl, aprann kreyòl.”) As is with such sayings, there is the surface meaning (“Behind mountains there are mountains”) and then there are the more subtle meanings. Haiti, “The Land of Mountains,” has a history that is shaped by its physical structure as well as the underlying tectonic movements. Mountains and earthquakes have shaped Haiti, and still do. But it’s more than that. Behind the strong people you see, there are hidden people you don’t see. That’s another meaning.…

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    A person climbs a sheer cliff.

    Day 360 : Se Papa Li, Se Pa Pa Li

    February 18, 2023

    2-3-5 are prime days for learning

    October 24, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Nou aprann kreyòl ansanm – we learn kreyol together

    September 19, 2022 /

    So I just had a most excellent lesson with my teacher today. We “met” on a Discord server in a group for people who are learning to speak and write kreyòl ayisyen. He was very kind, and suggested that we schedule a time to talk this week. Except for the unfortunately bad connection (there is just a problem with phone lines connecting during rough weather), we had good conversation. Apparently, I’m speaking a bit better than I thought. I want to work on my accent and rhythm, so we’ll spend about an hour a week. doing just that. That makes three teachers, with formal lessons three times a week with…

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    Duolingo fini!

    November 27, 2022

    Food Is Family

    May 7, 2023

    Eighteen Months In

    September 19, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Tools for learning Haitian Creole

    September 18, 2022 /

    This is going to be a long post at the behest of some others who want to know what tools I have been using to learn Haitian Creole (kreyòl ayisyen). The first tool I picked up was Duolingo (duolingo.com, duolingo app on Apple/Android). This tool is an easy-to-use app that uses “gamification” to not just help you learn, but to get you to want to learn because you get points for consistency and accuracy, you find yourself in competition with others, and there are silly interludes that can make it feel like it’s fun to learn a new language. Duolingo has been around for a while – I first signed…

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    Connections

    June 28, 2022
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