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Celebrate Recovery, faith, justice

Jesus Was Crucified by the State

Jesus was crucified by the state, y’all. I see and hear my fellow white American Christians celebrating the fact that they are very close to imposing their peculiar version of…

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May 7, 2017
kreyòl ayisyen, language

Not so fast there!

Now, I'm not dekouraje paske mo yo se difisil pou m konprann, Ignorance is part of learning, and I look forward to it. But this stuff still surprises me. Well,…

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August 15, 2022
faith, family, history, justice, musings, questions, writing

Memorial Day 2016

Memorial Day is the official start of summer. Typically there’s a family and friends get-together, a barbecue, a game on the TV, and adult beverages. We have this freedom to…

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May 30, 2016
Celebrate Recovery, essays, Life Recovery Skills, musings, questions, writing

Model Garage

We will always need that sense of being connected and that sense of knowing that someone sees us, recognizes us, and finds us valuable.

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June 13, 2011
Celebrate Recovery, challenges, education, family, history, musings, questions

Christians, We’re Doing It Wrong (Again)

I read in the news today where a family in Oklahoma is being threatened with death for the crime of . . . protesting the distribution of religious materials in…

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May 16, 2015
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    To learn a language is to see a new world

    August 23, 2022 /

    Creole is the language of the people, made by the people. It's not a language that was developed by the elites. It's a language hammered out to help enslaved people from Africa find a way to communicate to each other as they were deliberately isolated from their own people to keep them incapable of resisting their enslavement by building a movement to overthrow their enslavers.

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    It’s Been a Minute…

    February 23, 2023

    One thing more

    November 20, 2022

    The Enchantment of Creole

    December 12, 2022
  • musings

    Am I fluent yet?

    August 18, 2022 /

    "Am I fluent yet?" The answer is, of course, "No, not yet." But I did have a good session with my instructor today. I am learning kreyòl and I am speaking kreyòl. And I will take that and hold onto it.

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    Two Things

    June 29, 2024

    It Doesn’t Have to Be This Way

    February 6, 2019
    Snowboarder

    Surfing the Avalanche

    February 15, 2010
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Not so fast there!

    August 15, 2022 /

    Now, I'm not dekouraje paske mo yo se difisil pou m konprann, Ignorance is part of learning, and I look forward to it. But this stuff still surprises me. Well, I'll keep plowing/ploughing through this book, and I look forward to feeling ignorant again when the next book comes. And I know I would drown in any secondary school in Haiti. Tèt mwen anpil chaje.

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    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023

    2-3-5 are prime days for learning

    October 24, 2022

    Ki kote m ye?

    July 23, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Almost half a year!

    August 10, 2022 /

    Learning to speak/read/write/hear Haitian has not only opened a door to a new language but also opened a new world of culture and history and social organization and food and music and art and religion that I simply wasn’t aware of. #Haitian #Kreyòl

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    Mwen damou pou Vava – a story

    March 17, 2023
    Several Haitian schoolchildren line up for a picture.

    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023

    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    More and more mountains . . . sigh

    August 6, 2022 /

    The more I dig into this language the more I find that I do not know anything at all. My initial appraisal of the language and the way to learn it is nearly entirely false. The initial methodology of saying simple phrases is helpful to build confidence, but Haitians do not talk like that.

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    It’s Been a Minute…

    February 23, 2023

    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022

    Liv kreyòl ayisyen fini!

    December 8, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Get off my lawn!

    August 2, 2022 /

    And as language is used to mark who's in and who's out, so it is used in context between those who are within the culture of Haiti and those who are, like me, without.

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    One thing more

    November 20, 2022

    Day 270 of the Infinite Journey

    November 19, 2022

    2-3-5 are prime days for learning

    October 24, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    The fun of learning

    July 31, 2022 /

    The best way to learn is to simply do. I'm trying that. I first must try out the first moments of wobbling on this bicycle, afraid to hit the ground, but determined to go on ahead.

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    Duolingo fini!

    November 27, 2022
    Two matching windows, side by side, with matching shutters. There is a flowerpot in each window.

    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023
    Several Haitian schoolchildren line up for a picture.

    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    What is fluency?

    July 29, 2022 /

    Goodness, I am so tired. I feel, again, like I just can’t absorb any more, and it’s all mush in my little head. I have two instructors who challenge me every time to go just a little bit further. (Well, to be honest, one of them pushes me to go way way further!) I kinda enjoy the challenge, but it’s not like I have some reserve of language skills that I’m not using. I’m just at a loss so often because I just don’t have the vocabulary for myself, and so many times when the language is spoken just a little too quickly I lose connection at some point and…

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    Liv kreyòl ayisyen fini!

    December 8, 2022
    A book cover for "Chita Pa Bay". An outline of a man With one hand he is holding a conch shell to his lips to sound an alarm, and with his other he holds a machete.

    I begin “Chita Pa Bay”

    December 31, 2022
    Several Haitian schoolchildren line up for a picture.

    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    How on earth did I get here?

    July 20, 2022 /

    Kreyòl ayisyen has five ways to say the singular "the." And now I know them!

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    Ayiti se yon lide—Haiti is an idea

    January 3, 2023

    Bogs and marshes and slogs oh my!

    January 31, 2023

    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    I have mo words, yo

    July 15, 2022 /

    I'm pretty happy with hitting another level of understanding. The lessons are enjoyable again, even though yes they're still tough.

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    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023
    Mixed Scrabble tiles

    Language and Memory

    February 10, 2025

    Food Is Family

    May 7, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    I have no words

    July 12, 2022 /

    M pa gen mo, y'all...

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    Day 270 of the Infinite Journey

    November 19, 2022

    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022
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    My Year So Far

    June 1, 2024
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Dèyè mòn gen mòn

    July 9, 2022 /

    The title of this post comes from a popular expression in Haiti: Behind every mountain is another mountain. (Literally, behind mountains are mountains.) Haiti is a mountainous country, so it makes sense on one level, but it also is a truth that when you see a mountain and climb to the summit you will see the next mountain to climb. There is no “last mountain.” It’s climb, achieve, rest, stretch, climb…over and over. So let’s have a summary of the past four months. Started from scratch in the last few days of February, and have been learning/practicing kreyòl ayisyen every day, for one to three hours a day. (One hour…

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    The Subtle Traps for the Unwary Learner

    February 8, 2023

    The Real 300

    December 19, 2022

    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    What’s Shakespeare got to do with it?

    July 8, 2022 /

    Haitian Creole / kreyòl ayisyen is already a very simplified language in both spelling and pronunciation, making it easier to learn than many other languages. But there are still a few things that can trip you up!

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    Food Is Family

    May 7, 2023
    A person climbs a sheer cliff.

    Day 360 : Se Papa Li, Se Pa Pa Li

    February 18, 2023

    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    In which I learn more words

    July 5, 2022 /

    Today’s lessons (PLURAL) in kreyòl were brutal. I listened to a conversation and had to answer in real-time what I was hearing, and even though it’s “good” for me (like cod liver oil is “good” for you), it was so hard to understand. So much of conversation in any language is a matter of sliding words together without even thinking. We do it in English, of course, but it seems to be more . . . fluid in kreyòl. (French is even more smushed together. At least kreyòl has some energetic sounds to help identify where a word is in a sentence.) There are two things working against me here.…

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    Two Things

    June 29, 2024

    2-3-5 are prime days for learning

    October 24, 2022

    Liv kreyòl ayisyen fini!

    December 8, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Istwa Keke ak Manman li — with assistance from a new friend

    July 1, 2022 /

    In which I pick up a new set of language skills - and a new friend.

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    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025
    A montage of human faces overlaid by various color filters.

    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023
    A Haitian man wearing a plaid tan shirt stands on a hillside looking over the valleys and hills below him.

    Ayiti se yon lide—Haiti is an idea

    January 3, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Tèt chaje! (my head is full!)

    June 30, 2022 /

    M praktike kreyòl pou yon edtan chak maten. Jodia m ap praktike envèse fraz tankou: /k/ Kisa Joj ye pou ou? /r/… Joj se kouzen mwen Kouzen mwen Joj ye Se kouzen mwen Joj ye Tèt mwen fè m mal! / Tèt chaje! I’m inverting responses to the question-form “What/who is <person> to you?” with the relationship given in the question. So it’s a great way to learn two things: What is the relationship? How to invert a sentence so that you can use either “se” or “ye” (both forms of “to be,” used in different positions in a sentence), or even both. So … Kesyon (question) “Kisa Joj ye…

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    In which I learn more words

    July 5, 2022

    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022
    A person climbs a sheer cliff.

    Day 360 : Se Papa Li, Se Pa Pa Li

    February 18, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Up close and pèsonèl

    June 28, 2022 /

    Yowza. I think today broke my brain! Last week’s lesson was on family relationships — mother, father, sister, brother, sister-in-law, cousins, grandparents, and so on. Like any language, there are ways to name each member of our families and declare their relationships. I just have to memorize them, and of course there are many variations of each to remember. Grann, Granmè, Grannma, etc. But with some work I can do it. Add to that, then, this week’s lesson on what I can only call “sentence inversion.” Here’s the jist: When you have a relationship with someone, you are something with them as well. So, “I am your friend” can also…

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    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022
    Two matching windows, side by side, with matching shutters. There is a flowerpot in each window.

    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023

    Eighteen Months In

    September 19, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Connections

    June 28, 2022 /

    Learning a new language can be difficult, but get the right tools, such as lessons, coaching, and live conversations, and it's easier. #Duolingo #italki #Lingbe

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    Maurice Sixto and His Stories

    March 27, 2023

    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025
    Several Haitian schoolchildren line up for a picture.

    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Street conversations

    June 27, 2022 /

    Today I had my first “street conversation” nan kreyòk ayisyen. Well, not on the street, exactly. It was a phone call with someone who wanted to talk in kreyòl with me through an app I’m using. Lingbe is an Android and Apple app (no Windows/browser support) that enables you to contact people around the world and have a conversation in your native language (as a helper) or in your learning language (as a learner). I set up my account a few months ago, but found the interface a bit daunting. And then I also was very wary of just letting some stranger call me or just talk to some strangers.…

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    October 24, 2022

    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023

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    November 16, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Idyom yo se pwoblèm

    June 19, 2022 /

    I’m not one to complain… Well, maybe a little. This last week we went from parts of the body (Pati a pou kò a) to “common and popular” idioms and proverbs that use parts of the body to make the point. And I’m telling you, it was like going from 0 to 60 in three seconds because understanding the meaning of idioms in any language is hard. English has them, of course, so it’s not like it’s unusual for kreyòl to have them. But holy cow, was it trè difisil to wrap my head around them to figure out what they meant. Even reading the explanations for what they mean…

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    2-3-5 are prime days for learning

    October 24, 2022
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    It’s Been a Minute…

    February 23, 2023
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    I begin “Chita Pa Bay”

    December 31, 2022
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    American Exceptionalism,  Celebrate Recovery,  faith,  history,  justice,  Life Recovery Skills,  Seattle

    Bullhorns and Butterflies

    June 19, 2022 /

    If you want to build your faith up so that you honor Jesus and you draw people to Jesus in your lives, might I suggest you do it the way that Jesus did?

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    When you think you want to help

    April 28, 2023
    A white man in a hat smiles at a white woman who smiles back.

    REVIEW: Good White Racist?

    May 24, 2021

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 28: I Am the Elephant

    June 24, 2019
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Finding the right tutor

    June 14, 2022 /

    So as part of my efforts to learn Haitian Creole I signed up for a few resources that would connect me with people. One is italk.com, which I’ve talked about before. It is a middleman that connects people who want to teach a language with people who want to learn a language. I found it to be effective, with a caveat that I’ll talk about later. The other is Lingbe, which does something similar but connects you with people who just want to have a conversation in the language that you want. I signed up but have never used it. The reasons for my not using Lingbe are part of…

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    November 19, 2022
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    February 8, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    An hour of conversation

    June 11, 2022 /

    So this last week (Tuesday) I had my first full hour of tutoring in kreyòl, and zanmi m, it was glorious! We spoke almost entirely in kreyòl, with just a few lapses, mostly by me when I was trying to ask a question (and I can and should ask them in kreyòl!) or when I was fumbling for the right word or reacting to my mistakes. (I mumble to myself that I should know the word!) My tutor a few times jumped in to explain a new word or word usage on some tricky parts, but really, as horrible as my accent is, and as hacky as my grammar is,…

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    Duolingo fini!

    November 27, 2022

    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023
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    Mwen damou pou Vava – a story

    March 17, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Practice makes for better practice

    June 6, 2022 /

    I’m kinda excited for what’s about to happen. I started this journey back in February/March 2022. (The first week was really the setting into the process and it was a blur.) Duolingo was a great help to me to get me used to the sounds and grammar and words, but it is not really a useful tool for conversations for this language. Unlike other, more broadly used languages, Haitian Creole (kreyòl ayisyen) doesn’t have the bells and whistles such as conversations and stories and the like. So I’m paying full price and not getting all that other languages get. (But given that it’s in Beta and I am willing to…

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    Ki kote m ye?

    July 23, 2023
    White cat stretching on a brown wooden plank

    Two Things

    June 29, 2024

    Bogs and marshes and slogs oh my!

    January 31, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022 /

    91 days from now you could be exactly where you are, or you could be deep into the study of a new language, ready to connect with people!

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    February 23, 2023
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    Maurice Sixto and His Stories

    March 27, 2023

    Duolingo fini!

    November 27, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    At long last language?

    May 31, 2022 /

    WE DID IT! Today was the first time that my tutor and I had an actual conversation in kreyòl! Now, to be fair, after ten or so weeks it wasn’t beautiful and it wasn’t entirely correct. But we did talk about “stuff” and I was able to form sentences and respond to questions with almost no help on a missing word. I’m still terribly wrong on word order, and sometimes I just don’t “get” it. But we are doing well! And today we hammered out the meaning of sentences such as “Wi, se dòktè mwen ye,” which if you know the individual words can be confusing. But it’s one form…

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    2-3-5 are prime days for learning

    October 24, 2022

    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023

    Bogs and marshes and slogs oh my!

    January 31, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Lordy, there are TAPES

    May 20, 2022 /

    Okay man, it’s getting serious now. In the previous weeks of lessons with my tutor, we did a lot of work on elementary parts of kreyòl—nouns, articles, verbs, connections, sounds, spelling, the alphabet, the numbers 1-100, then how to count higher, and some work on simple tenses (participle, past). A few of the lessons felt a little much, in that they were using some alternate ways of saying things, and that’s fine! That’s how it should be—show me some ways to say something. But then . . . we turn to the narratives of four people living in four towns in Haiti, talking about their families, their birthplaces, their jobs…

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