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We Do Because We Can

We ‪#‎tortured people who did not crash planes into the Twin Towers or the Pentagon. We tortured people who were later declared innocent. We tortured people who died from the…

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December 18, 2014
musings

What Can I Do to Help in Ferguson?

I am having a series of conversations with people who ask me (as if I’m an expert!) of what they can do to help with the situation in Ferguson. I’m…

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November 27, 2014
American Exceptionalism, faith, history, justice, racism

Can This Racial Division Be Healed?

It’s fascinating and saddening to realize that the people who are outside the faith have a better understanding of Jesus and Christianity and the Gospel than many Evangelicals have.

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February 11, 2021
Celebrate Recovery, faith, justice, Life Recovery Skills

In the Fields of the Lord

I guess I’m on a kick of listening to acoustic, and finding intriguing (for me) albums that have that just-right touch of delicacy and strength. The album Work Songs by…

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February 12, 2019
kreyòl ayisyen, language

Starting point

About three weeks ago I was encouraged by some Haitian friends to start using Duolingo. They knew of my interest in learning their language, and they had talked with me…

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March 20, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    So much more

    September 14, 2022 /

    Listen, this is hard work. Not just the language. That’s hard because it’s new. Learning a new language means learning new sounds and rhythms, learning new ways to think about something because “they don’t say it that way” becomes more and more frequent. You don’t just assemble words and phrases to match English syntax and vocabulary. For example, there isn’t the idea of passive voice, so saying something in kreyòl ayisyen that’s expressed in English in the passive voice means rethinking what it is you’re trying to say. So learning the language is going to be hard the deeper you go because you’re going to have to learn how to…

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    One thing more

    November 20, 2022

    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023
    A street scene in Jakmèl, Ayiti. (also known as Jacmel, Haiti) A colonnade with several open bays.

    Maurice Sixto and His Stories

    March 27, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Thoughts about the past six months

    September 2, 2022 /

    More than 190 days now of learning Haitian Creole. A few things I've learned along the way, in no particular order: #AprannKreyòl #KreyòlAyisyen

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    An inflated semi-circle arching over a racetrack. It is labeled FINISH

    It’s Been a Minute…

    February 23, 2023

    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023

    One thing more

    November 20, 2022
  • man in yellow and black plaid shirt sits on bed looking at camera
    American Exceptionalism,  history,  racism

    History as Cassandra

    August 30, 2022 /

    Let me bring in a little history for you today. Let’s talk about Haïti . . . Haïti was once called the “Pearl of the Caribbean” because of its beauty and its profit for the colonizers. Of course, that profit came at the cost of human misery, torture, sexual abuse, and death. But that doesn’t matter when profit is the highest good. The original inhabitants were turned into creatures of labor (“slaves”) by the colonial slave-masters and rapidly died off because hey abuse and beating and torture and all the rest ends up killing the people you’re trying to make a profit from. So the slave-masters started importing Black Africans—teachers,…

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    Man staring out window

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 32: Getting Over Myself

    October 14, 2019

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 9: White Superiority

    February 19, 2019
    An ocean shore in the tropics. A line of palms stretches from the lower left to the middle right.

    When you think you want to help

    April 28, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    I are progressing!

    August 28, 2022 /

    Learning kreyòl ayisyen is a challenge, no getting around that. But eventually, it does come together!

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    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023
    avocado, split in half. The bottom half is the entire avocado, and the top half shows the top part of the seed.

    My Year So Far

    June 1, 2024

    Eighteen Months In

    September 19, 2023
  • Celebrate Recovery,  education,  faith,  justice,  Life Recovery Skills

    Do This in Remembrance of Me

    August 25, 2022 /

    There were some who could eat right at the altar of sacrifice and restoration with hearts so hard that they would deny food to their own brothers and sisters in community because “well, if they wanted to eat, they should have brought their own.”

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    Lenten Lamentations

    March 5, 2019

    Getting From A to B

    March 4, 2019
    Two men having a conversation

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 31: Courageous Conversations

    October 6, 2019
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    To learn a language is to see a new world

    August 23, 2022 /

    Creole is the language of the people, made by the people. It's not a language that was developed by the elites. It's a language hammered out to help enslaved people from Africa find a way to communicate to each other as they were deliberately isolated from their own people to keep them incapable of resisting their enslavement by building a movement to overthrow their enslavers.

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    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023
    A street scene in Jakmèl, Ayiti. (also known as Jacmel, Haiti) A colonnade with several open bays.

    Maurice Sixto and His Stories

    March 27, 2023

    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023
  • musings

    Am I fluent yet?

    August 18, 2022 /

    "Am I fluent yet?" The answer is, of course, "No, not yet." But I did have a good session with my instructor today. I am learning kreyòl and I am speaking kreyòl. And I will take that and hold onto it.

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    What I’ve Learned in 2023

    December 31, 2023

    Great Expectations

    June 4, 2019

    It Doesn’t Have to Be This Way

    February 6, 2019
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Not so fast there!

    August 15, 2022 /

    Now, I'm not dekouraje paske mo yo se difisil pou m konprann, Ignorance is part of learning, and I look forward to it. But this stuff still surprises me. Well, I'll keep plowing/ploughing through this book, and I look forward to feeling ignorant again when the next book comes. And I know I would drown in any secondary school in Haiti. Tèt mwen anpil chaje.

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    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025
    A spider web, close up, illuminated by the morning sun. Behind it is a forest.

    The Subtle Traps for the Unwary Learner

    February 8, 2023

    2-3-5 are prime days for learning

    October 24, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Almost half a year!

    August 10, 2022 /

    Learning to speak/read/write/hear Haitian has not only opened a door to a new language but also opened a new world of culture and history and social organization and food and music and art and religion that I simply wasn’t aware of. #Haitian #Kreyòl

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    The Enchantment of Creole

    December 12, 2022

    Food Is Family

    May 7, 2023

    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    More and more mountains . . . sigh

    August 6, 2022 /

    The more I dig into this language the more I find that I do not know anything at all. My initial appraisal of the language and the way to learn it is nearly entirely false. The initial methodology of saying simple phrases is helpful to build confidence, but Haitians do not talk like that.

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    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023

    M toujou ap aprann – I’m still learning

    January 20, 2025

    Eighteen Months In

    September 19, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Get off my lawn!

    August 2, 2022 /

    And as language is used to mark who's in and who's out, so it is used in context between those who are within the culture of Haiti and those who are, like me, without.

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    My First Foray into the Field

    November 16, 2023

    Seeing with a New Tongue

    August 27, 2023
    Two Haitian children carrying yellow plastic water buckets on their heads. Behind them is a small water supply building with its door open. In the background are more people carrying yellow plastic water buckets on their heads.

    Great Unexpectations

    January 28, 2024
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    The fun of learning

    July 31, 2022 /

    The best way to learn is to simply do. I'm trying that. I first must try out the first moments of wobbling on this bicycle, afraid to hit the ground, but determined to go on ahead.

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    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023
    A montage of human faces overlaid by various color filters.

    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023
    Several Haitian schoolchildren line up for a picture.

    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    What is fluency?

    July 29, 2022 /

    Goodness, I am so tired. I feel, again, like I just can’t absorb any more, and it’s all mush in my little head. I have two instructors who challenge me every time to go just a little bit further. (Well, to be honest, one of them pushes me to go way way further!) I kinda enjoy the challenge, but it’s not like I have some reserve of language skills that I’m not using. I’m just at a loss so often because I just don’t have the vocabulary for myself, and so many times when the language is spoken just a little too quickly I lose connection at some point and…

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    Ki kote m ye?

    July 23, 2023
    A book cover. A young boy holding his bicycle is kissed by a young girl.

    Mwen damou pou Vava – a story

    March 17, 2023

    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    How on earth did I get here?

    July 20, 2022 /

    Kreyòl ayisyen has five ways to say the singular "the." And now I know them!

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    The Enchantment of Creole

    December 12, 2022

    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022
    Two matching windows, side by side, with matching shutters. There is a flowerpot in each window.

    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    I have mo words, yo

    July 15, 2022 /

    I'm pretty happy with hitting another level of understanding. The lessons are enjoyable again, even though yes they're still tough.

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    A Haitian man wearing a plaid tan shirt stands on a hillside looking over the valleys and hills below him.

    Ayiti se yon lide—Haiti is an idea

    January 3, 2023

    Connections

    June 28, 2022

    In which I learn more words

    July 5, 2022
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    I have no words

    July 12, 2022 /

    M pa gen mo, y'all...

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    A person climbs a sheer cliff.

    Day 360 : Se Papa Li, Se Pa Pa Li

    February 18, 2023

    Eighteen Months In

    September 19, 2023
    Several Haitian schoolchildren line up for a picture.

    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Dèyè mòn gen mòn

    July 9, 2022 /

    The title of this post comes from a popular expression in Haiti: Behind every mountain is another mountain. (Literally, behind mountains are mountains.) Haiti is a mountainous country, so it makes sense on one level, but it also is a truth that when you see a mountain and climb to the summit you will see the next mountain to climb. There is no “last mountain.” It’s climb, achieve, rest, stretch, climb…over and over. So let’s have a summary of the past four months. Started from scratch in the last few days of February, and have been learning/practicing kreyòl ayisyen every day, for one to three hours a day. (One hour…

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    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023

    In which I learn more words

    July 5, 2022
    An inflated semi-circle arching over a racetrack. It is labeled FINISH

    It’s Been a Minute…

    February 23, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    What’s Shakespeare got to do with it?

    July 8, 2022 /

    Haitian Creole / kreyòl ayisyen is already a very simplified language in both spelling and pronunciation, making it easier to learn than many other languages. But there are still a few things that can trip you up!

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    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023
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    Looking back 300 days

    December 16, 2022
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    Language and Memory

    February 10, 2025
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    In which I learn more words

    July 5, 2022 /

    Today’s lessons (PLURAL) in kreyòl were brutal. I listened to a conversation and had to answer in real-time what I was hearing, and even though it’s “good” for me (like cod liver oil is “good” for you), it was so hard to understand. So much of conversation in any language is a matter of sliding words together without even thinking. We do it in English, of course, but it seems to be more . . . fluid in kreyòl. (French is even more smushed together. At least kreyòl has some energetic sounds to help identify where a word is in a sentence.) There are two things working against me here.…

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    Liv kreyòl ayisyen fini!

    December 8, 2022

    Duolingo fini!

    November 27, 2022

    My First Foray into the Field

    November 16, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Istwa Keke ak Manman li — with assistance from a new friend

    July 1, 2022 /

    In which I pick up a new set of language skills - and a new friend.

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    Binary confidence (Binè konfyans)

    January 11, 2023
    A Haitian man wearing a plaid tan shirt stands on a hillside looking over the valleys and hills below him.

    Ayiti se yon lide—Haiti is an idea

    January 3, 2023

    Short stories and lengthy processes

    January 16, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Tèt chaje! (my head is full!)

    June 30, 2022 /

    M praktike kreyòl pou yon edtan chak maten. Jodia m ap praktike envèse fraz tankou: /k/ Kisa Joj ye pou ou? /r/… Joj se kouzen mwen Kouzen mwen Joj ye Se kouzen mwen Joj ye Tèt mwen fè m mal! / Tèt chaje! I’m inverting responses to the question-form “What/who is <person> to you?” with the relationship given in the question. So it’s a great way to learn two things: What is the relationship? How to invert a sentence so that you can use either “se” or “ye” (both forms of “to be,” used in different positions in a sentence), or even both. So … Kesyon (question) “Kisa Joj ye…

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    My Year So Far

    June 1, 2024
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    Maurice Sixto and His Stories

    March 27, 2023
    Several Haitian schoolchildren line up for a picture.

    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Up close and pèsonèl

    June 28, 2022 /

    Yowza. I think today broke my brain! Last week’s lesson was on family relationships — mother, father, sister, brother, sister-in-law, cousins, grandparents, and so on. Like any language, there are ways to name each member of our families and declare their relationships. I just have to memorize them, and of course there are many variations of each to remember. Grann, Granmè, Grannma, etc. But with some work I can do it. Add to that, then, this week’s lesson on what I can only call “sentence inversion.” Here’s the jist: When you have a relationship with someone, you are something with them as well. So, “I am your friend” can also…

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    2-3-5 are prime days for learning

    October 24, 2022
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    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023
    A montage of human faces overlaid by various color filters.

    What makes someone a human?

    March 2, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Connections

    June 28, 2022 /

    Learning a new language can be difficult, but get the right tools, such as lessons, coaching, and live conversations, and it's easier. #Duolingo #italki #Lingbe

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    Mwen damou pou Vava – a story

    March 17, 2023

    Seeing with a New Tongue

    August 27, 2023
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    Sometimes our brains tell the truth while our emotions lie

    May 3, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Street conversations

    June 27, 2022 /

    Today I had my first “street conversation” nan kreyòk ayisyen. Well, not on the street, exactly. It was a phone call with someone who wanted to talk in kreyòl with me through an app I’m using. Lingbe is an Android and Apple app (no Windows/browser support) that enables you to contact people around the world and have a conversation in your native language (as a helper) or in your learning language (as a learner). I set up my account a few months ago, but found the interface a bit daunting. And then I also was very wary of just letting some stranger call me or just talk to some strangers.…

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    June 1, 2024

    Seeing with a New Tongue

    August 27, 2023
    A street scene in Jakmèl, Ayiti. (also known as Jacmel, Haiti) A colonnade with several open bays.

    Maurice Sixto and His Stories

    March 27, 2023
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Idyom yo se pwoblèm

    June 19, 2022 /

    I’m not one to complain… Well, maybe a little. This last week we went from parts of the body (Pati a pou kò a) to “common and popular” idioms and proverbs that use parts of the body to make the point. And I’m telling you, it was like going from 0 to 60 in three seconds because understanding the meaning of idioms in any language is hard. English has them, of course, so it’s not like it’s unusual for kreyòl to have them. But holy cow, was it trè difisil to wrap my head around them to figure out what they meant. Even reading the explanations for what they mean…

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    De Kestyon, Reponn (Two Questions, Answered)

    January 26, 2023

    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022
    A spider web, close up, illuminated by the morning sun. Behind it is a forest.

    The Subtle Traps for the Unwary Learner

    February 8, 2023
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    American Exceptionalism,  Celebrate Recovery,  faith,  history,  justice,  Life Recovery Skills,  Seattle

    Bullhorns and Butterflies

    June 19, 2022 /

    If you want to build your faith up so that you honor Jesus and you draw people to Jesus in your lives, might I suggest you do it the way that Jesus did?

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    Maybe the Tree Is Bad

    April 16, 2021
    A white man in a hat smiles at a white woman who smiles back.

    REVIEW: Good White Racist?2

    May 24, 2021
    A man is checking a map to see where he goes next

    #WakingUpWhite Chapter 38: The Rugged Individual

    December 20, 2019
  • kreyòl ayisyen,  language

    Finding the right tutor

    June 14, 2022 /

    So as part of my efforts to learn Haitian Creole I signed up for a few resources that would connect me with people. One is italk.com, which I’ve talked about before. It is a middleman that connects people who want to teach a language with people who want to learn a language. I found it to be effective, with a caveat that I’ll talk about later. The other is Lingbe, which does something similar but connects you with people who just want to have a conversation in the language that you want. I signed up but have never used it. The reasons for my not using Lingbe are part of…

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    I begin “Chita Pa Bay”

    December 31, 2022

    At long last, language

    June 1, 2022

    Bogs and marshes and slogs oh my!

    January 31, 2023
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